the girl who is struggling now to lose 11kgs

I know it doesn't take me long to gain back all the weight that has taken me so long to lose. Well not all the weight l have lost because l was 118 kgs and l am currently (gulp) 71kgs. In august l got down to 67kgs. Oh, well l did it once l can do it again. I believe their is seven weeks now to Christmas, l can still lose 11 kgs by Christmas but wont be as easy. This always happens to me, l start seeing results and then get excited and then go backwards very quickly.

So today l am doing my Monday declaration which many a person has done, l don't know why people choose a Monday to do it but it is the beginning of a new week and a new me. Slate is scrubbed clean and start again, this time next week the aim is to be 69kgs, l will keep you informed.

Still there

I cant believe there is only eight weeks to Christmas and once again l am no where close to my goal. Like every addict l went back for a hit and stayed there a bit too long and l am now currently (gulp!!!) 72 kilos. Yes l well and truly have gained back weight and some. I can see the weight as well this time, l can see my tummy is back, and my thighs are bouncing and rubbing when l am running and l generally feel uncomfortable. So today l start all over again, trying to remember why l am losing weight. So watch out world Gaby is on the last legs of this journey, and this is one journey l want to reach. It has been a bump ride so far with many twist and turns and now the last eight weeks is going to be a hard slog but l am determined to reach this goal.

The Saboteur within

Recently some women l know where talking about people who where the saboteur's of their diet. It made me think about who is my saboteur. Unfortunately the blame lays squarely on my own shoulders. I have to confess l have also been the saboteur of some other peoples diets. The main reason why my husband is losing weight at present is that l am not sabotaging his diet at night with calorie leaden dinners.

For some reason l am my own worst enemy when it comes to food. This week l am going to try and become my best friend when it comes to food choices. I also ask my best friends to help me. If you see me walking down the chocolate isle at coles please tell me to leave the aisle immediately. If you see me about to bite into a donut with my coffee, please remove it. My willpower for food is awfully, l can resist the temptation of alcohol and love to exercise so the food is the last issue l need to conquer.

Looking back I've always had someone next to me helping me when it has come to exercise and also for avoiding alcohol and giving up cigarettes. However l have never asked for help when it has come to food. Maybe it is the lack of a support net work that has stopped me with my over consumption of food. So please all you out there l ask for your support, maybe even come and do a pantry raid to ensure l am not smuggling in any chocolate. I need to reach this goal of 60 kilos by Christmas, so l know l can achieve my weight goals.

I found a diary l use to keep when l was a teenager a couple of weeks ago and even in that diary l was talking about the same food issues "why cant l stop myself from eating junk food?, why don't l care as much as the other girls about my food selections?" old habits die very hard. Sixteen years on l am still having the same internal conversations and conflicts about food. At least now l am hoping by making these conflicts external l might be able to finally reach my goals, and with a little help of my friends.

Holiday are great but...

My holiday was great. However l am bringing more back with me than what l took, that is 4kgs of fat. Yes 4 kilos in one week. It always amazes me how hard it is to lose but to put back on is a sinch. Anyway my plans of a healthy holiday went out the door. As soon as l checked in my diet checked out and nothing was off the menu. The sad thing is l didnt go too crazy and l exercised every day. Imagine what the damage would of been without the excerise and minimal restraint l showed.

Now l am back, and l start all over again. The plus side is my pantry and fridge are empty and ready for me to fill with healthy food. Fingers crossed this weight falls off as quickly as it came on.

Have l ever mentioned how much l love Tuesdays?

I know l say it over and over again but l do love Tuesdays. It is always the week l weight the least, most people would after completing three hours worth of work outs. Tomorrow is a different story with a tupperware party, but it is one with a twist. After the tupperware party a bootie camp will be conducted in the backyard, l will ask everyone to try and measure their calories consumed during the tupperware demonstration and then proceed to show them how much they have to work to burn those calories off. Novel concept. Albeit l can't see many people turning up to future parties l hold ;-)

One great philosopher once said "you are who you associate with" I've always held this to be true, l try to surround myself with people who provide energy and interest to my life. I hope l can provide this to you. Positive and good vibes that all of us do struggle with something(s) in life. By reading my struggles and what l am doing to make positive changes in my life will hopefully help you to.

Enjoy your week people, oh by the way did l mention how much l LOVE TUESDAYS.

Help

It is late and l am trying to complete my uni work to only find my stomach grumbling. I confess l have been great today with my food until 20 mins ago where l just consumed, wait for it,,, four bowls and big bowls of corn flakes. You might think this isn't much but it works out to be 500 calories. It takes me an hour of hard slog at the gym to burn those calories and only 5 mins to consume them. Arghhhhh!!!! This is why losing the last seven kilos suck. At least l only have seven kilos to go now. I do remember not long ago when l would of killed to be at the weight l am now. Now that l am here l really want to be 60kgs. Not as bad as l wanted the four bowls of corn flakes.  Thank god it's Tuesday tomorrow, and l now have a regular gym buddie which makes my workouts even more enjoyable. So l have to work extra hard to work off those corn flakes.

Ground hog day

Feeling like my life is ground hog day. The same things play out the same way day in day out. I am looking forward to a holiday to change the routine and get some new inspiration. Only 8 more sleeps to go and then family vacation. I am looking forward to seeing the big strawberry again and milking the cows at the diary. I am also looking forward to the endless activity that happens when we go away. The place we are going to has both an indoor and outdoor pool. Last time we went to this place the kids had me in the pool at 7am, back home at 8.30 for breakfast, then out the door again before ten for either an adventure or back in the pool. The days just fly buy as l have fun playing with the children and being out of my normal routine. This time away l am going to pay attention to my diet. Normally l relax my eating which normally results in a weight gain even with all the extra curriculum activities. So this time no coco pops for breakfast and chocolate every night after dinner. Strawberries are in season so l am looking forward to having these for breakfast with yogurt and muesli. Fresh salads for dinner and lunch and then l can have a few glasses of wine after all the swimming l will be doing.

Until the holiday l have to keep motivated to keep my eating on track. Have decided till l go away l am not going to focus on losing any more weight but just maintain my current weight and try to push my fitness level instead. Eating those few extra calories a day allows me to have the energy l need to really push myself during my workouts.

Go Cats Go

For those who do not live in the land of oz, last weekend was our Australian football league grand final and the Geelong Cats won. Our household was extremely pleased to say the least. However my body was not to please with me. After two bottles of champagne any food looked good and l ate pretty much everything and anything l could see, including a plate of party pies at midnight. The damage was 2 kilos but after my 1500 calorie workouts yesterday its back to a 1 kilo gain. I do say workouts because l did body step, zumba and then meet some mums at the basket ball court in the afternoon for an hour. So in total 3 hours.

In all l think it would take about 7 hours of hard gym work to burn off the calories l consumed in one day. So tonight l promised the children l would take them out for dinner. Going out for dinner is extremely hard for me. My willpower sucks at the best of times. Then being surrounded by tables full of food, being able to smell the food and seeing people eating makes it even harder. So tonight l am going in with a plan, l am taking cash and no debit cards and l am taking some work in with me. No money and distraction of work should help me.

Today is Body Combat and then another work out with the mums at the primary school in the afternoon. I was also thinking about posting my food diary on here on a daily basis. Is anyone interested in seeing this?? Please let me know otherwise l wont bother.

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