I don't know if l have mentioned this. But l am really busy, l am not lying here people. Not busy enough to stop eating. But l am only just now starting to find a new rhythm that l have to follow. This year, l hope, will be the busiest year of my life, and then after this l plan on doing nothing. Well l lie there, those of you who know me, know that l can not do nothing. But this year l am working part time, president of the kindergarten, running bootie camp, studying full time and oh have three children, one husband a cat who all want my attention. Then there is me who would also like sometime to myself. Sigh, there l got it all out there.
While l was adjusting to this new schedule many things have slipped. One of those being my weight. It is so hard for me right now to find a balance, l really would like to be around 65kgs. Albeit l want to be able to lead a life where l don't have to document every morsel of food that passes my mouth and every calorie of sweat that leaves my body. I just want to be able to eat a clean healthy diet and not have to worry about blowing my calories. That's the hardest thing about getting closer to your goal weight. What you have to do to get to the weight off and stay there is so much hard work. Sometimes it is hard to justify the effort, especially when my original goal when l was 100kgs + was just to be a size 12.
So l am thinking of changing the title of my blog the girl who is struggling to decided what bloody weight she wants to be. I am also approaching my danger period of the year EASTER!!!!! (jaws theme song music playing the back ground) l have never known an Easter where l have not gained at least 5kgs. This year my aim is not to gain any, yes you heard me right. I am not going to gain any weight over Easter. I recently let milk chocolate re enter my diet and it hasn't been good, it didnt make me feel nice and my skin has broken out. Notice how l state milk chocolate, dark chocolate l find to be okay, mainly because l have two squares and l am fine, but dairy milk, a family block later and l still could have more. I have already done the chocolate over indulge before Easter and l am now back to 73kgs, yes you heard me right 73kgs. My weight yo yo's so much it is ridiculous. One thing for sure is l know 73kgs is not a great a weight for me, so at the moment l am reining in the food this week and ramping up the exercise to lose a kilo or two and then monitor it from here. So watch out you girls at bootie camp, this week is going to be a killer.
