NYE

Now it is ticking ever so close to the end of another year. It is also getting closer to millions of people making many resolutions. Now l am not against resolutions, l believe it is important for people to set goals and challenge themselves. However in setting goals many people rush forward and skip two very important steps. 1. To live in the present and try to become better 2. Look back and reflect on what you have learnt and how far you have come. The past is a great indicator of what you've achieved, where you have failed and how you can improve.

Life's lessons are just that 'lessons' and you need to learn from them because if you don't you will continue going around and around and around.

So before l make my resolution l look at the present day, l am 67kgs, the first Christmas ever that l can remember where l did not gain any weight. I have a wonderful family who support me and love me even through all the crazy endeavours and adventures l take them on. I am getting an entire nights sleep with out interruptions for little children. I am into my second year of university studies and enjoying every minute of it. I also live in a fantastic community with a great net work of friends who feel like family. I can not go anywhere in my local area with not seeing one person l know, and l love that.

Now to reflect, l have had a crazy six years with having three children, complete change of career path, massive weight gain going form 63kgs to 118kgs in a period of three years. Moving to a new area, having no friends or support network and no idea what l wanted to do with myself. I remember coming home from the hospital with my first son and looking at myself in the mirror and thinking 'what have l done to myself?' I do know what l did, and many women have done it before me and will continue to do it after me. I lost myself, l gave all of myself to everyone and left nothing behind for me, the only thing that was there for me was food.

My new years resolution is not to 'lose myself again', to constantly discover new things that l can do and achieve both mentally and physically. To also not lose the momentum that l have generated.

I also want to appreciate everyone around me more. I see my children growing so fast and what to spend every moment possible with them and making them laugh. I want to spend more one on one time with my husband and continue to deepen our unbreakable bond. He is the one person who knows me better than me, when l start to do something self destructive he is there holding my hand and guiding me back onto the right path. I also want to spend more time with the girls that have become wonderful friends. Every female needs her friends because sometime men just don't understand what it is like to be a women and a mother. They also do not want to attend chick flicks.

I encourage you all to spend a moment to look at the present, past and future. Every day you should aim to meditate for 5 mins and reflect. Use those 5 mins to help you refocus and  listen to your inner voice. Sometimes you invoice only whispers to you and you need to be still and quite to hear it, but it always there.

I hope 2012 allows you to discover the most wonderful person you will ever know, YOU!

Happy new year