Turn your cant into can

Well only a few weeks left till my dead line. I am still 67kgs, which l am chuffed about. I am glad that l have managed to maintain my weight with out going back into old habits. Last time l went on a weight loss goal when l reached it l fell pregnant and soon found many excuses to gain weight back. This time there will be no more babies, no more excuses. I quote " She turned her cant into can and her dreams into plans". That is how l feel right at this very moment.

For once l am extremely happy with all of my efforts, l have worked bloody hard this year and it has paid off , in more ways than l could of ever excepted. I am excited to be moving forward on this new chapter of trying to maintain my weight as my schedule becomes even more complicated. But l will continue to to turn cant into can and my dreams into plans. Watch out world my Dreams are huge so just you wait and see what is coming around the corner.

So l have a few weeks left to try and lose a few more kilos. I know their is a good chance l wont reach the target of 60kgs, but l am not ashamed. Last time l was 60kgs was when l was 16. If l can reach 63kgs which is the weight l was when l first met my husband l will have the best Christmas present of all.

My body has changed a lot since l was last this weight. I always worked out but never achieved the current muscle mass l currently have. My arms and back are taking shape nicely, now if my bum and thighs would kindly follow l will be a very happy girl.

Here's to dreaming big! Cheers

back to 67kgs yay!!!

Im am back to 67kgs, my husband assures me that the new scales are no different than the old ones because his weight never moves and he was the same weight on the new scales as the old ones. I also found my measurements from my 67kg wait previously and they match up with my current measurements. So yay, yay, yay, l am back on target to goal 60kgs by Christmas. Which is less than seven weeks away. Seven kilos in seven weeks, l can do this.

It really all comes down to food choice and portion control. It is amazing how much this impacts my weight. As l get closer to my goal it will get harder to lose the weight, it will also be a big adjustment trying to maintain the weight. I haven't been 60kgs since l was 19, so it will be interesting to see how l go. Hopefully 2012 will bring a new year of new habits, one's that don't revolve around food and the kitchen.

I have been so absorbed by my children and husband doing this weight loss challenge has allowed me to get to know myself again. I had forgotten about ME whilst caring for everyone else. But how l am to tell my children they have to look after themselves when l wasn't looking after myself. With discovering myself again l now have a different outlook and look forward to see what challenges await.

New scales and they are kinder

I purchased new scales today. The last ones went to heaven after my cleaning efforts on Tuesday, how was l suppose to know that you shouldn't bleach them? Anyway l purchased new scales today, same brand but different model. The only problem is that my yard post hasn't moved but the tool l am using to measure this has, and these scales are far kinder. I jumped on them today and my current weight is 68kgs. I know l could not of dropped from 71kgs to 68kgs in five days. I may dream of weight loss like that but l know it is not possible for me to achieve. Whilst l am happy to report l am 68kgs l cant help thinking about what l would of been on my old scales. Luckily l have been taking my measurements so l this will be a better indicator on how l am going.

So l am now back on target to be 60kgs by Christmas thanks to my kinder scales.

I finally went to do the boxing class again this morning and once again needed to take a asthma pump six times to get to the end. I do not know what it is with this one class, but it is the only class that pushes me past my VO2 max. This does not feel comfortable. Albeit to see results you need to do this, so l now declare l will be attending the boxing class from now on. If l don't challenge myself l wont improve.

the girl who is struggling now to lose 11kgs

I know it doesn't take me long to gain back all the weight that has taken me so long to lose. Well not all the weight l have lost because l was 118 kgs and l am currently (gulp) 71kgs. In august l got down to 67kgs. Oh, well l did it once l can do it again. I believe their is seven weeks now to Christmas, l can still lose 11 kgs by Christmas but wont be as easy. This always happens to me, l start seeing results and then get excited and then go backwards very quickly.

So today l am doing my Monday declaration which many a person has done, l don't know why people choose a Monday to do it but it is the beginning of a new week and a new me. Slate is scrubbed clean and start again, this time next week the aim is to be 69kgs, l will keep you informed.

Still there

I cant believe there is only eight weeks to Christmas and once again l am no where close to my goal. Like every addict l went back for a hit and stayed there a bit too long and l am now currently (gulp!!!) 72 kilos. Yes l well and truly have gained back weight and some. I can see the weight as well this time, l can see my tummy is back, and my thighs are bouncing and rubbing when l am running and l generally feel uncomfortable. So today l start all over again, trying to remember why l am losing weight. So watch out world Gaby is on the last legs of this journey, and this is one journey l want to reach. It has been a bump ride so far with many twist and turns and now the last eight weeks is going to be a hard slog but l am determined to reach this goal.

The Saboteur within

Recently some women l know where talking about people who where the saboteur's of their diet. It made me think about who is my saboteur. Unfortunately the blame lays squarely on my own shoulders. I have to confess l have also been the saboteur of some other peoples diets. The main reason why my husband is losing weight at present is that l am not sabotaging his diet at night with calorie leaden dinners.

For some reason l am my own worst enemy when it comes to food. This week l am going to try and become my best friend when it comes to food choices. I also ask my best friends to help me. If you see me walking down the chocolate isle at coles please tell me to leave the aisle immediately. If you see me about to bite into a donut with my coffee, please remove it. My willpower for food is awfully, l can resist the temptation of alcohol and love to exercise so the food is the last issue l need to conquer.

Looking back I've always had someone next to me helping me when it has come to exercise and also for avoiding alcohol and giving up cigarettes. However l have never asked for help when it has come to food. Maybe it is the lack of a support net work that has stopped me with my over consumption of food. So please all you out there l ask for your support, maybe even come and do a pantry raid to ensure l am not smuggling in any chocolate. I need to reach this goal of 60 kilos by Christmas, so l know l can achieve my weight goals.

I found a diary l use to keep when l was a teenager a couple of weeks ago and even in that diary l was talking about the same food issues "why cant l stop myself from eating junk food?, why don't l care as much as the other girls about my food selections?" old habits die very hard. Sixteen years on l am still having the same internal conversations and conflicts about food. At least now l am hoping by making these conflicts external l might be able to finally reach my goals, and with a little help of my friends.

Holiday are great but...

My holiday was great. However l am bringing more back with me than what l took, that is 4kgs of fat. Yes 4 kilos in one week. It always amazes me how hard it is to lose but to put back on is a sinch. Anyway my plans of a healthy holiday went out the door. As soon as l checked in my diet checked out and nothing was off the menu. The sad thing is l didnt go too crazy and l exercised every day. Imagine what the damage would of been without the excerise and minimal restraint l showed.

Now l am back, and l start all over again. The plus side is my pantry and fridge are empty and ready for me to fill with healthy food. Fingers crossed this weight falls off as quickly as it came on.